Would You Be Mad That I Held The Old Me Back?

[warning: emo post]

Aw come on, you mean you don't remember when this was the hottest on screen kiss ever?


(Before Tobey Maguire turned into an undesirable pudgy thing. )

I watched Spiderman 1 the other day, I loved the soundtrack for it a lot when it first came out, I had it on CD and played it constantly in my room. I only had three sets of friends then: in school, out of school and online (typical high school blog girl much?). Now I'm missing too many sets of friends that I daren't contact any of them because keeping anyone up to date takes up so much time, and by the time we meet up again all drama has ended. So now I seem like a biatch who has been only been focussed on herself lately and hasn't really cared what anyone else is up to with the exception of what people post on facebook. Damn facebook. It has given me the impression that I have been in the loop when actually I haven't spoken to some people for 6 months. Where had that simpler (and yet complicated) time gone? The time where I reached out to people by typing nonsense and cared about people I never even knew.

Where'd the shiny smiley me go?

I hate that my gmail keeps anything and everything within searchable reach, so searchable that I can find them by accident. I sound like a really nice person in some emails that I write. Lovely, and innocent, and sweet. I type very bitter things to my friends these days - things that are supposed to pass for teasing or sarcasm, but actually make for a very unreadable message. Imperial has made me not very nice.

Cue angsty emo theme of me circa 2002: